{"id":818,"date":"2026-07-21T20:38:55","date_gmt":"2026-07-21T20:38:55","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/www.lucieurbanova.cz\/?p=818"},"modified":"2026-07-23T12:53:18","modified_gmt":"2026-07-23T12:53:18","slug":"blby-detstvi-to-vubec-mela-jsem-uplne-normalni-jako-kazdej-zadny-velky-dramata","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.lucieurbanova.cz\/?p=818","title":{"rendered":"\u201eBlb\u00fd d\u011btstv\u00ed?\u201d To v\u016fbec. M\u011bla jsem \u00fapln\u011b norm\u00e1ln\u00ed. Jako ka\u017edej. \u017d\u00e1dn\u00fd velk\u00fd dramata.\u201c"},"content":{"rendered":"\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\"><\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">\u201cTak prima. Jak ses v tom d\u011btstv\u00ed c\u00edtila?\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Tak n\u011bjak za\u010dalo moje prvn\u00ed setk\u00e1n\u00ed s Kate\u0159inou. P\u0159i\u0161la jsem k n\u00ed, proto\u017ee m\u011b po\u0159\u00e1d je\u0161t\u011b ob\u010das potr\u00e1pily \u00fazkosti, i kdy\u017e u\u017e jsem sv\u00fdmu psychoanalytikovi vymluvila d\u00edru do hlavy.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">P\u0159i prvn\u00edm sezen\u00ed jsem Kate\u0159in\u011b odvypr\u00e1v\u011bla sv\u00e9 bezprobl\u00e9mov\u00e9 d\u011btstv\u00ed. Jak jsme s na\u0161ima jezdili na prima dovolen\u00e9. I kdy\u017e jsme nem\u011bli moc pen\u011bz, m\u011bli jsme v\u0161echno d\u016fle\u017eit\u00e9. M\u00e1ma se starala o tepl\u00e9 a vyv\u00e1\u017een\u00e9 j\u00eddlo, oble\u010den\u00ed, vzd\u011bl\u00e1n\u00ed i spiritu\u00e1ln\u00ed z\u00e1zem\u00ed. T\u00e1ta zase zaji\u0161\u0165oval, aby byla sranda, nau\u010dil n\u00e1s v\u0161echny sporty a spoustu praktick\u00fdch v\u011bc\u00ed do \u017eivota.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Br\u00e1cha se o m\u011b staral ve \u0161kolce, kam jsem necht\u011bla chodit, proto\u017ee jsem se tam nec\u00edtila dob\u0159e a na fotk\u00e1ch se tv\u00e1\u0159il, \u017ee jsem jeho milovan\u00e1 s\u00e9gra. \u010cert\u00edci z o\u010d\u00ed mu ale koukali u\u017e tehdy.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">\u201cTak pro\u010d ty \u00fazkosti?\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">\u201eJak ses c\u00edtila doma?\u201c<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">\u201eNo\u2026 n\u011bkdy to bylo n\u00e1ro\u010dn\u00fd. Br\u00e1cha byl trochu na\u0161tvan\u00fd, \u017ee jsem se narodila. Museli pr\u00fd kv\u016fli mn\u011b d\u00e1t pry\u010d rybi\u010dky. A \u017ee ty rybi\u010dky zrovna vy\u017eaduj\u00ed hodn\u011b \u010dasu. \u010casto si ze m\u011b d\u011blal legraci a vym\u00fd\u0161lel r\u016fzn\u00e9 srandy. Brusle na \u0161\u0148\u016f\u0159e. Dynamo. Z\u00e1mek od kola kolem pasu\u2026 no bavil se dob\u0159e. M\u011bl na\u0161t\u011bst\u00ed v\u0161echno dob\u0159e vypo\u010d\u00edtan\u00fd. Matfyz\u00e1k u\u017e v d\u011btstv\u00ed, tutovej. M\u00e1 soci\u00e1ln\u00ed lalok trochu utla\u010den\u00fd \u010d\u00edslama.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">\u201eTak\u017ee to byla sranda?\u201c<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">\u201eNo\u2026 j\u00e1 nev\u00edm. Kte\u0159\u00ed sourozenci se neperou? J\u00e1 ho taky provokovala. Oba jsme v tom v\u011bt\u0161inou byli namo\u010den\u00ed. N\u011bkdy jsem m\u011bla strach. Na\u0161i zrovna t\u0159eba nebyli doma, byli na zahrad\u011b. Ale jak \u0159\u00edk\u00e1m\u2026 v pohod\u011b. Kdo to neza\u017eil?\u201c<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">\u201eVztekala ses?\u201c<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">\u201eTo asi moc ne. Byla jsem sp\u00ed\u0161 ur\u00e1\u017eliv\u00e1.\u201c<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">\u201eA jak se u v\u00e1s doma nakl\u00e1dalo se vztekem?\u201c<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">\u201eM\u00e1ma ml\u010dela, kdy\u017e byla na\u0161tvan\u00e1. Bylo obdivuhodn\u00fd, jak dlouho to vydr\u017eela. T\u00e1ta se pak v\u00edc sna\u017eil, tak\u017ee asi funk\u010dn\u00ed strategie, ne?\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">\u201eA t\u00e1ta?\u201c<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">\u201eTen byl hodn\u011b pry\u010d. Budoval autod\u00edlnu, stav\u011bl karavan. Kdy\u017e u\u017e se roz\u010d\u00edlil, st\u00e1lo to za to. Ale to bylo snad jen dvakr\u00e1t. A m\u011b nikdy neuhodil. Byla jsem jeho hol\u010di\u010dka.\u201c<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">\u201eA co smutek? Jak se u v\u00e1s projevoval?\u201c<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">\u201eJestli n\u011bkdo plakal? T\u00e1ta ne. M\u00e1ma\u2026 p\u0159em\u00fd\u0161l\u00edm, jestli jsem ji n\u011bkdy vid\u011bla plakat. Mo\u017en\u00e1 ano. Mlhav\u011b si to vybavuju. Ale opravdu v\u00fdjime\u010dn\u011b.\u201c<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">\u201eA co ty? Jak to vypadalo, kdy\u017e jsi plakala?\u201c<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">\u201eAsi jako v\u0161ude. Pod\u00edvej, t\u00e1mhle je hezk\u00e1 kyti\u010dka. Takov\u00e1 hezk\u00e1 hol\u010di\u010dka p\u0159ece nebude plakat.\u201c<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Norm\u00e1lka.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">\u201eTak\u017ee ses vlastn\u011b moc nepotk\u00e1vala s t\u011bmi nep\u0159\u00edjemn\u00fdmi emocemi.\u201c<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">\u201eJ\u00e1 nev\u00edm. Doma jsme je samoz\u0159ejm\u011b m\u011bli. Jen na\u0161e rodi\u010de nikdo nenau\u010dil, co s nimi. Jejich rodi\u010de pro\u0161li v\u00e1lkou. Tohle asi tehdy nebylo na po\u0159adu dne.\u201c<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">\u201e\u00dazkost \u010dasto souvis\u00ed s emocemi, kter\u00e9 jsme si nemohli dovolit pro\u017e\u00edt. S t\u011bmi nep\u0159\u00edjemn\u00fdmi. Z nepro\u017eit\u00e9 radosti se \u00fazkosti v\u011bt\u0161inou nerod\u00ed.\u201c<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">\u201eDob\u0159e\u2026 ale pro\u010d a\u017e ve dvaceti osmi? To ned\u00e1v\u00e1 smysl.\u201c<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">\u201eT\u011blo je geni\u00e1ln\u00ed. M\u00e1 spoustu kompenza\u010dn\u00edch a ochrann\u00fdch strategi\u00ed. Jen\u017ee n\u011bkdy se vy\u010derpaj\u00ed. N\u011bkdy se natolik vzd\u00e1l\u00edme sami sob\u011b, \u017ee u\u017e to nejde udr\u017eet a cel\u00fd syst\u00e9m se za\u010dne hroutit.\u201c<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">\u201cTak\u017ee to, \u017ee jsem cht\u011bla d\u00edt\u011b a svatbu a nedostala je, byla jen posledn\u00ed te\u010dka?\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">\u201cMo\u017en\u00e1.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">\u201cStra\u0161n\u011b jsem \u0159e\u0161ila, jestli od n\u011bj odej\u00edt. Bylo to pro m\u011b p\u0159\u00ed\u0161ern\u011b t\u011b\u017ek\u00e9 rozhodnut\u00ed.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">\u201cJe\u0161t\u011b m\u011b napad\u00e1, \u017ee p\u0159ed vznikem \u00fazkost\u00ed jsem chodila na imaginace, p\u0159i jedn\u00e9 z nich jsem znovu pro\u017eila vlastn\u00ed porod. Cvi\u010dila jsem \u010dchi-kung, v\u00edc jsem se napojovala na t\u011blo a poprv\u00e9 se opravdu potkala se sv\u00fdm vztekem. To m\u016f\u017ee souviset?\u201c<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">\u201eT\u011blo si toho pamatuje v\u00edc, ne\u017e si mysl\u00edme. A n\u011bkdy se od n\u011bj odpoj\u00edme pr\u00e1v\u011b proto, aby n\u00e1s ochr\u00e1nilo p\u0159ed bolest\u00ed.\u201c<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">\u201eTak\u017ee to byl vlastn\u011b krok spr\u00e1vn\u00fdm sm\u011brem? Znovu jsem nav\u00e1zala kontakt se sv\u00fdm t\u011blem.\u201c<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">\u201eAno.\u201c<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">\u201c<strong>Mo\u017en\u00e1 jste jen pot\u0159ebovala v\u011bt\u0161\u00ed podporu<\/strong>.&#8220; <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">&#8222;N\u011bkoho, kdo by \u0159ekl, \u017ee se ned\u011bje nic hrozn\u00e9ho. \u017de to, co se probouz\u00ed, nen\u00ed nep\u0159\u00edtel.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">\u201eTak\u017ee nem\u00e1m \u00fazkosti z proklet\u00ed nebo z minul\u00fdch \u017eivot\u016f? Prost\u011b d\u011btstv\u00ed? Norm\u00e1ln\u00ed d\u011btstv\u00ed? Tak to prrr. To mi ne\u0159\u00edkejte. Na\u0161i m\u011b m\u011bli r\u00e1di. Nikdo m\u011b neml\u00e1til. M\u011bli jsme co j\u00edst. Jezdili jsme na dovolenou. To p\u0159ece nem\u016f\u017ee b\u00fdt ono.\u201c<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">\u201eJsou probl\u00e9my, kter\u00e9 se podle n\u011bkter\u00fdch teori\u00ed p\u0159en\u00e1\u0161ej\u00ed transgenera\u010dn\u011b. Ale tady m\u00e1me dost materi\u00e1lu ke zpracov\u00e1n\u00ed u\u017e z tohohle \u017eivota. A to, \u017ee za \u00fazkostmi nestoj\u00ed jen d\u011btstv\u00ed, nemus\u00edm asi ani \u0159\u00edkat.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Na chv\u00edli se odml\u010dela.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">\u201ePoj\u010fme se pod\u00edvat na n\u011bco jin\u00e9ho.\u201c<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">\u201eNa co?\u201c<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">\u201eNa pocit bezpe\u010d\u00ed. Zn\u00e1te ho?\u201c<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">\u201cNoo.. j\u00e1 nev\u00edm. Bezpe\u010d\u00ed asi jo. Mo\u017en\u00e1 mi sp\u00ed\u0161 chyb\u011bl takov\u00fd ten pocit porozum\u011bn\u00ed.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">\u201cA n\u011bkdy pozd\u011bji jste takov\u00fd pocit za\u017eila?\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Pl\u00e1\u010d. Nezadr\u017eiteln\u00fd pl\u00e1\u010d. \u201cJo no. S t\u00edm klukem, jak jsem cht\u011bla svatbu a d\u011bti.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">\u201cA on to necht\u011bl.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">\u201cNecht\u011bl.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">A\u017e tehdy mi do\u0161lo, \u017ee m\u011b nebolela jen ztr\u00e1ta partnera. Bolela m\u011b ztr\u00e1ta pocitu nalezen\u00e9ho domova.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Text vznikl voln\u011b na podklad\u011b terapi\u00ed nejen u Kate\u0159iny.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Cht\u011bla jsem uk\u00e1zat, \u017ee i \u010dlov\u011bk, kter\u00fd m\u00e1 pocit, \u017ee m\u011bl \u00fapln\u011b norm\u00e1ln\u00ed d\u011btstv\u00ed, m\u016f\u017ee v dosp\u011blosti zjistit, \u017ee si z n\u011bj nese n\u011bco, co tehdy neum\u011bl pro\u017e\u00edt nebo zpracovat. N\u011bkdy ani velk\u00e1 l\u00e1ska nesta\u010d\u00ed k tomu, aby d\u00edt\u011b dostalo v\u0161echno, co zrovna pot\u0159ebovalo.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\"><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>\u201eBlb\u00fd d\u011btstv\u00ed?\u201c To v\u016fbec. M\u011bla jsem \u00fapln\u011b norm\u00e1ln\u00ed. A p\u0159esto jsem o mnoho let pozd\u011bji sed\u011bla u terapeutky kv\u016fli \u00fazkostem. Jak je to mo\u017en\u00e9? Na\u0161e setk\u00e1n\u00ed zm\u011bnilo zp\u016fsob, jak\u00fdm se d\u00edv\u00e1m na vlastn\u00ed minulost.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":820,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-818","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-pribehy"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.lucieurbanova.cz\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/818","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.lucieurbanova.cz\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.lucieurbanova.cz\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.lucieurbanova.cz\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.lucieurbanova.cz\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=818"}],"version-history":[{"count":4,"href":"https:\/\/www.lucieurbanova.cz\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/818\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":874,"href":"https:\/\/www.lucieurbanova.cz\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/818\/revisions\/874"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.lucieurbanova.cz\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/media\/820"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.lucieurbanova.cz\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=818"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.lucieurbanova.cz\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=818"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.lucieurbanova.cz\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=818"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}